Changes are ahead

If you guys didn’t know I work in a hospital. I work as an nursing assistant in the OR ( midnights). Tuesday after the holiday I get an email from my supervisor telling me that they are giving me the option to have me work mornings or afternoons , since they are getting rid of …

Feeling blue. The after effects of COVID

So end of February I ended up getting COVID. Thankfully I was vaccinated, but I still had it pretty bad. But not bad enough to be in the hospital. I am finding it hard to get my energy back. I spoke to my therapist about it and as well as my dr. They say it …

Depression, socializing, and dating

Hi guys! Sorry it’s been a while. I was seeing someone plus going to school. Working in a hospital during Covid and all that other stuff. I realized that I need to go back to blogging and journaling, in hopes that I can get out of my rut. So last summer I was seeing someone, …

Dating and anxiety

I really think I need to start a series of mental disorders and dating. I feel like people have them more than we know about. anx·i·e·ty/aNGˈzīədē/Learn to pronouncenoun What is anxiety? a feeling of worry, nervousness, or unease, typically about an imminent event or something with an uncertain outcome. So dating can be uncertain... you …

Depression and dating

I will admit I have depression. And with this pandemic it is hard. Now turn the tables around where your seeing someone who is dealing with the sane thing.... Now I know I have a few new readers, I’m an up beat and sorta positive person. I try my hardest with other people. Now the …

The art of being happy

adjective 1. feeling or showing pleasure or contentment So what does it take to be happy? Or happy in what? I can tell you that depression takes away your happiness and swallowed it whole. It also depends on the person or what you are doing. I am happy when I’m with my kiddos, cause I …

When you show you care

So I’ve been seeing R for a few months now. And I really like him. And I’ve debated if he felt the same about me. My stupid anxiety. So I think I found my answer in a few statements he had said to me. Last week he returned from KY. He told me that there …

Ugh birthday blues

So today feels like any other day except I turn 40. But why do I feel so blue? I was thinking about it and I realized I had some major set backs. I was hoping that I would of been it close to finishing school. And as well as losing some of this surgery weight …

Fabulous 40

The big 40 will not scare me. It’s just a number. My birthday is on Tuesday. I’m another year older, another year smarter, and braver than I have been in a while. In the state of Michigan we are still in quarantine until the 12th of June. So not much will be open plus I …

I will not have feelings… damn it…

It must be me. I catch feelings to easily. My one friend is concerned that I will get hurt. So I told Mr. F this. I told him I don’t want to be hurt like last time. Which I told him about my pervious relationship. He agreed and said he did not want to be …